Monday, 18 March 2013

Trying to [cautiously] find my feet again ....

So... I am going to attempt to find my doll business feet again!

I have had a few people ask me about my dolls lately and it really breaks my heart when i have to tell them that i am no longer making them.

Honestly they really do mean so much to me and i get so much out of creating them that I feel I owe it to them and to myself to give it another go and see if I can manage it now!?

I have my girls in daycare one day a week and although that is my ONLY 'day off' and I usually dedicate the whole day to housework I think that it I am really serious about this working then I can do a little extra housework on every other day and then have my one free day for creating my dolls & softies!

I was just reading an article that was featured in Babyology a couple of years ago! That was definitely a proud moment and that has given me a bit of motivation to make this work.

Well ... I'm just putting it out there and hopefully you will see more of me in the coming weeks!

I might even have a new Evie and Henry character to introduce as a bit of a come-back onto the doll making world!

Watch this space .....

Thursday, 31 January 2013

14 days ...

14 days is what I have to make all that has happened, and all that i have been feeling a positive thing.

I believe that things happen for a reason. Another baby would have been a welcome blessing but it was really bad timing for us.

Maybe I needed to realise that I can be living my life more than simply being in it.

I have taken up the Skinny-me-tea 14 day detox.

I need to drink a detox tea each morning and then a '├žolon cleanse' tea every second night .... {i am not sure why i am writing in italic.? it is so frustrating because my computer keeps freezing & it wont let me change it} ...

I have just taken my #day1photos -  I will post them all in 14 days at the end!! (my PC is playing up and i cant upload any pics now)

... after some shutting down and restarting of my pc I am now able to change my font from italic but am still having issues uploading photos.

I wil sit down in the next couple of days and try and work out whats going on (its been happening the last couple of posts) #grrrrrrrrrr

:) xX

Monday, 14 January 2013

Today was meant to be a good day ...

Today was meant to be a good day. Today is not. It has turned out to be a sad day.

Today I was going to announce that I was pregnant. I had even pinned a cool pregnancy announcement idea on Pinterest that I was going to replicate once I got the image from today's ultrasound.

I knew that something was wrong. In fact that was my reason for keeping it from most people. I just had a gut feeling that something wasn't quite right.

For the past couple of weeks I haven't felt pregnant. Its been such a bizarre feeling. I started to show SO early and then it all that just seemed to go away. I have just felt over weight for the past 2 weeks, but not pregnant. Kind of the same way that I have felt after both of the girls were born!

I know my body so well that I knew something was wrong. The same reason that I knew I was pregnant so early. I found out when I was only 4 weeks and even then it was too early to detect a heartbeat because the foetus was so small. I was assured that this was completely normal, but it wasn't so.

I have been told I have what is called an incomplete miscarriage. So basically I have not miscarried the baby on my own and have to have it removed. That is and will be the most distrubing thing for me to deal with.

So the most therapeutic thing I have been able to do today is write this blog post and my [late] New Years resolution to myself is that I am going to update and maintain my blog more frequently. I am unable to keep up with my doll business for the time being because I am home by myself with our 2 girls the majority of the time and our house is just too small to have an area that I can leave set up to come back to when I need to. I had even put a plan in place to change the name of my blog and was going to start blogging again ..  begining with the anouncement of my pregnancy. But that was not so.

All is good. I am sure this has happened for a reason. It is better to happen now than for us to have an unhealthy babe.

So with that I will sign out, but I will be back once I have given my blog a make over - and maybe a name change (this has been by far the thing thats made me deal with everything ok today ... oh and maybe the beer that I had before midday today. I got a six pack on the way home from my ultrasound this morning - its ok the girls are in day care)

:) xX